just when you thought you could lean on someone.
he left.

he left you the way you were when he picked you up.
he left you with nothing.

& now everything you thought he was,wasnt.

to think you knew him when you don't.
cause he's still the same old same old person.

your world crumble down as soon as he left.
like nothing happened.

they say to you,
damn girl what is wrong with you.we all knew that you're strong enough to withstand this,alone or not.you're strong enough to fight this.you once told us,everyone,that things happened for a reason.god damn it.he doesn't deserve you.

or maybe you don't deserve people who are selfish enough to think only about themselves,
how it hurts them,
their selfish ways,their pains,sorrows.

just like a freaking doll.
use you,throw you.

if only they knew how much it hurts you.
if only they knew that you had enough of this bullshits.

as lonely as you are,i am too.
as sick & tired as you are,i am too.

take it as a test.
a test of will & strength.

how you solve it.
no matter what the odds are,
there's always solutions to everything.
things will definitely work out,god's willing.

you once told everyone around you,
if there's will,there will be ways.

to my dear friend,
i know you're strong enough to pull through this.
i believe you could.

besides,
you're always better off alone,aren't you.
next time,
don't lean on fences.
try leaning on walls instead.
they're much stronger.

sincerely yours,
Ayna Kaijin.