unintended

as i move forward,
i stop to rest.

and so,
i sat on the edge of the world thinking about the possibilities we had together.

it was a 50-50 possible solutions.
one has to sacrifice lots for it to happen and one has to understand how the situtions are.

i know deep inside,
you'll wish for it happen & you want it to happen.

but dear,
i'm not sure of it myself.

i'm half way through forgetting about you,us & our place.
and the moment i sat of the edge of the world and reflected on myself.

i realise i really miss you so much.
and i feel i neglected you,us.

i've been lying to myself all this while now.
i've been moving forward, leaving everything back and hoping all would go away.

but all i wanted was to be with you and i wanted you to be right here by my side.

i've moved but i'm not sure where i am now.
i'm lost & afraid.

i don't want to have any time alone.

i hate this.

why do i feel that i'm the one leaving you standing there alone ?

i don't wish to look back.
i don't wish to turn back.

a little voice inside my head told me don't look back, never look back.

and now i'm stuck.

the thought of you there kills me.
you, left me alone hanging onto something that was left for quite some time now.
and you, killed me softly with this pain you left behind.

i hope it'll be over & done with.

though i miss you so much & i still love you.