let me recall,
you left me once before.

but it seems much easier before.
than now.
(is it because we just started a relationship?)

maybe because i got pre-occupied by drinking a LITTLE too much,
which i know it doesnt help,
which i dont find it necessary.
(i quited/stopped alcohols. yay me)

am just wondering how i did it before.

or is it because i dont care much?

dont worry,
i'm pre-occupied by studies NOW,
(actually,correction,am stucked with it.)

boo hoo.

its really diefferent now dnt you think so?

how can they just shove/forget about it & move on?

come on people,tell me what's your big secret?

how do you guys do it?
seems so easy,
which is not.

its harder than doing maths or waiting for the plants to grow,
(if you had planted a green bean out of boredom)

i was never patience. (haha)

now i need to.

sigh.
fuck la fuck la.

my brain just got haywired.
too much going on in there.

if only you had a mircoscope,
you'll see how things are.

crapping about life.

(smetimes,life aint that bad as you image.just need a little maintenances/adjustments to it)

thanks.

loves,
AYNA & PYAN KAIJIN.

i miss you kissing my forehead.