i'm feeling so down all of the sudden.
super down.

i wished you were here.

its raining now.
& it seems such a nice weather to be meeting.

i need a friend.
i need a accompany.

maybe i just need you beside me.
even without saying a word.
just you & me.
staring lamely at each other.
may seems cool though.

feels so far.
really far.

& my heart is sinking deeper & deeper.

i won't debate.
you are just one brainless pig.
seriously.

i won't just vent my anger cause of a brainless pig you are.
i just won't.

does it matters so much?

you change for you.
not for people.

& i won't let my thoughts go astray.

shame on you.
shameful.

my dear goldfish die.
leaving the friend behind.
now she/he is lonely.
pity.

that does not count on me.
i don't pity myself cause i have a fewer friends.

i just don't like to mingle around making new friends.
am not scared but just feel like i'm really better off fending only for myself.

eventhough yes,
i do feel lonely.
but i think i just let it be.

am feelin so low that i,
a. can't put myself to sleep.lots of thoughts running wild.
b. feel like as if i'm dying now.
c. am having a heart ache & headache.

can i just say, i'll do as i wished.
its a free world we're living.not including the law that is.
so?

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