tell me,what's worth holding on to?

yet another long story to be told. & yes, a sad one. never a happy ending to end with. i wander aimlessly that night, clearing my thought, hoping that you came & end my loneliness. but no, you never came. you asked me to go home. devastated i was. you were always there, but not this time round. tell me, was it because of your greedy needs, you cant be with me? & yes, only tears come flowing down. what do you care?
we came from two different worlds. nothing in common i may add. & yes, nothing goes really well. we quarrel lots. fights too. the more i wanted to avoid you, the more closer i get to you. love is what brings us together.
problems started with you, but ends with me.why must you compared me with you? I'm not you. I'm me. as far as i tried to pull myself away from you. & put my mind at ease, I'll find that I'm lost. even if the sun has rise, I've found that you're gone, I'm lost.
drowning myself in sorrow, pains. i understand the pain, having to be apart from the person you care most. may i ask, do you know how it feels for my heart to breaks, my dreams shattered my hopes smashed ? do you?
have you ever wanted to be in my shoes, to know what's its like being me. call me self-centered i don't care. even if its your fault, you shoved the blames to me. you throw your anger all out to me. asked, do i care? yes will be what i reply. cause its me you're throwing it at. your selfish needs are illusions. but yet you seek it. to relief you tension & stress.
asked yourself. what about me ? who do i seek ?
tell me, what worth holding on to something that is dead ?