Monday, February 18, 2008
down to drain.bye bye.
Those memories made by us, i just cant forget bout them. The first date, the first kiss & the first hug. I just have no hopes of waiting for you but i just cant let you go. Waiting for you hurts me. Loving you kills me. You are driving me crazy. Time & time again the more i want to leave you, the more i cant bear to do it. Nature takes it course into forgetting that love & pain & hatred but its not working out. Why it is so hard to forget about you ? Is it because you are the only want that could understands me? The only one that will do anything for me ? The only one that is so sweet towards me ? Maybe if i could just find that special someone who treats me like you do then i could just forget that memories & you ? Or it is cause that for one that understands is the one that appreciate ? Why am i so nice to you when you hurt me ? Am i stupid ? Or that i appreciate you lot ? Is it because of that your love towards me is so strong that i couldn't manage to love anyone else ? What on earth is wrong with me ? Is it me or is it you ? Am i being to nice here ? Am i being so stupid not to give you up ? Cause do i still love you ? Or cause of your presence lingering around me ? Am i going mad ? I think i am. Feeling so mushy right now. Baby, i still need you & i still love you. You are always full of giving me hopes to love you. & i guess thats the reason for me not gonna forget you & let you go. Cause i cant bear seeing you with others. Cause i cant bear seeing you sad. Maybe cause you are always the one who makes my day brighter even though it is dull. Makes me stronger & change me into someone better. Thank you so much darling. My hearts say not to let you go. But my mind just wanna let you go. Weird. Mind & heart don't go as one. But time will reveal everything i ever wants. & right now, it is not by my side. If i could only turn back time & go where ever you will go. I am sure nothing like this would happen. & i kept blaming myself till now. If only i was with you.